It all started at the door-step

Adding on to CC Lemondrop's comments about a certain R. A...

We started talking in the summer when I was in mid-breakup with the previous disaster but that's a whole other story. Right after the break-up I came home from vacations and soccer camp and we went on our first date.

It all started at the door-step that night.

I knew he was going to kiss me and of course I was chewing gum but I only expected a simple peck so I just had it on the side of my mouth... All of a sudden there was a sneak attack by tongue and my gum was gone... so awkward! So I pulled out and said "Um I think you have my gum, you can spit it out on the grass.." and I turned and walked inside, secretly freaking out and sooo embarrassed.

From that moment of the awkward first kiss I was undeniably hooked. We dated from the end of June to the beginning of August. I think in that whole time we maybe hung out 7 times. Lets just say I got ditched a lot... In August after not seeing each other for 2 weeks he took me on a 10 minute date so after he could dumped me because he "didn't know himself" and "this is just High School and we need to date around so we have options for marriage." Is that really how boys think marriage work? well good luck to him! anyways..

I didn't cry once about it. I got super mad but never cried. I thoroughly enjoyed being single at that time because I was getting asked on tons of dates, and I could tell that a certain someone was getting verrrry jealous! After Homecoming, which was really fun, R.A. texted me and told me we needed to talk at school on Monday. So when Monday came around he stopped me on the way to my Photo class and said, "I know what I want now.. and that's you... if you'll take me back..." Looking back if I could have done it again I would have let him watch me walk away, but being the pathetic girl I am, I was SO excited that he'd seen the light and came back so I decided to give him a second chance.

We started right where we left off, back to boyfriend and girlfriend. He promised this time would be better and he would make more time for me. This happened for maybe 2 weeks before he started to not care again.

The second chance was the same as the first, it just lasted longer. In the whole three months we were together, he called less than 10 times!! (Even after obvious hints...) I really don't know what was going through my mind.. with most people if there's a problem its so easy to tell them whats up, but not with this particular boy, I let him walk all over me. I let it go and tried so hard to make it work this time. After Thanksgiving when I was in California and didn't hear from him once I asked him to call so we could catch up, plan our physics project and plus I was having a terrible day and just wanted to talk. He promised he would call but never did.. should I have been surprised? No. He broke all his promises.

Anyways, he didn't call and that was the end of my patience. I was up all night thinking about it and decided he would either fix it or it was over and that was the end. So, that day I decided I would look smokin' hot so he could watch me walk away..a little drastic but it had to happen.. and after physics (when we got a freaking bad grade on our project because he didn't call to plan it!!!!!) I asked why he didn't call and he said

"oh I just went to bed, what did you want?"

"Nothing now... I think you're right about not treating me like I deserve.. I deserve a lot better and if you want to fix this you'll be at my house by the end of the night or I'm gone."

As I turned and walked away he said "Ill be there by six and we can talk..." and as much as id like to say I didn't sit home and wait for him, I did... By eight when I didn't hear from him I decided to go to the gym. He called when I was there at 8:30 giving me obvious attitude saying "We need to talk.." so he met me there in the parking lot and tried to dump me!!! After I had already dumped him!!! Boys and their egos... he just didn't want to get dumped, so he came to tell me his heart was never in it and I hope we can still be friends. I completely kept my composure and managed to get in a few jabs at him before the conversation ended.

This time I really lost it.. I cried for a long time. My mom in turn recommended seeing a therapist.

Thanks mom...

Anyways... isn't it nice when all of your guy friends are their friends too? and how they just love telling you about how the night you broke up he went and made out with a junior girl who'd he been texting for 3 weeks? I had my cry and got it all out and now all I can say is that she is a little skank for weaseling in between us and he is a complete dirt bag for letting her.

So not only is he a jerk but a cheater as well...

And plenty of people have told me so its obviously not a rumor, plus I've seen it.

Now, considering what CC said, R.A. is obviously confused and jealous that I'm about 78% over him and has noticed that I could care less who hes making out with these days, and she has nothing on me. And now that he's breaking down and desperate for attention we can easily make his life a living heck, or we can let it go... I think I might do the first but pretend I took the high road.

Either way good luck to you.... you can cross me off your list of "marriage options" buddy. (: