Someone please stop this train....

Do I want another relationship to finish out my senior year? Heck no! Do I still take interest in certain guys? Yes.... So how do I find a compromise? Oh yeah, go for the guy that already has a girlfriend, then there's no problem. curses....




Well you see, Boy #2 has reappeared. (Please see "the good guys" or something like that for previous post) He's back with his cheater of a girlfriend, who complains about how he never listens or gives her his time. First off, he's the best boyfriend a girl could have! He sent her a dozen roses just because the other day. I mean, he listens more than my best friend ever listens to me! These accusations are empty. Regardless, he loves her apparently. Dang it. Well that's okay, because I still get to spend hours of time with him because we share the same extracurricular activity. He still is talking to me everyday, so in essence... I really don't mind. I'm free to like him, without the stress. By stress I mean, "Does he like me?" "Where is this headed?" "Do all my plans include him now?" "Should I stop talking to these other guys?" Nope, I've got none of that! I owe him nothing, and he owes me nothing! It's great actually.



So why am I posting? Well, it comes down to... I've got to get out of here before I actually fall for the guy! I know I'm a bit late, he's already in my dreams (No not like that duh, I mean he randomly appears in my actual dreams). How do I stop this train again? And yes, I am aware that everyone, including the latest magazine, has told me I'm supposed to give up. I just can't seem to actually do that.



six word: would you please dump the girlfriend?

Boy Meets Girl

Boy meets girl. Girl likes boy. Girl spends more and more time with boy #2.(Try to keep up) The more girl talks to boy #2 about boy... Girl likes boy #2. Girl sticks with boy because she's run out of time to realize she likes boy #2. Girl sticks with boy in order to appear constant, solid, and very non-player-slut-like. Girl realizes boy #2 is a problem when trying to fall for boy, so girl stops communication with boy #2. Boy and girl have fun over Christmas break. Girl decides she can be carefree, and not over analyze boy's very staid, non open communication, and non talkative manner..... (how very unrealistic of me, please note the characterization I just provided... Quite the opposite of boy #2, furthering the point of this post) The good times just sort of fade off for girl and boy. Girl realizes she's trying to make something out of... well nothing. Not only that, but that she doesn't really want to make anything out of it.
Girl decides she's got to find a way to close this. Meanwhile... Boy #2 is present again. (I couldn't resist) Boy #2 wants to know why girl even likes boy..... and girl has no answer. This is my formal apolagy to boy #2. You see, he didn't deserve me continually seeking advice on boy. Let's face it, I just wanted to talk to you more...
Here's my formal description of three things that boy #2 is, and that every guy should be:

• He makes time to talk to you. Quite literally, he stopped to talk to me about my woes (ironically involving boy) instead of rushing off to a party
• He only speaks the truth and is entirely honest. We may not be accustomed to honesty in men, but it's true. He honest about himself and even the male gender in general.
• He compliments you in the sweetest ways. Might I recall the fact that I am filled with stupid meaningless stories, and half the time I just say the oddest things? He doesn't even make me feel stupid, which is quite the accomplishment. He actually boosts your self esteem because you can't... not believe him, you just do!

Just saying, I finally found a guy worth a girl's time.... too bad he's with a girl that's an A+ liar.

Six Word: Silently wishing I'm still your princess