W's

Why! Just when I'm over you why do you always start talking to me again! No, ill never go back. You can count on that. In fact, write it down and remind me. You're right. I am jealous that you have a girlfriend (you lying sack of....) so it would really be nice if the occasional conversations we have weren't about her. Thank you, for not texting back when I told you the real reason I can't wait to graduate is to get over you and move on. That is exactly what I intend to do so have fun in your dead end relationship with someone still in high school. Loser.
Anyways...
Wake up! I know its never going to work out for us because you're a just friends type of guy (and I'm OK with that... sorta) and also because you're head over heels for the woman but really, stop wasting your time on her! She's playing you like a pro! It's so obvious. I wish you could see it and would realize that there's someone else who really likes being one of the guys, but would love having a chance with you! If not, that's just fine and I'll still be happy to help you with her games. Thanks for helping me get over him, wether you know you have or not.

Warning! (I know for a fact that there are males that know the URL. Don't ask who what when where why or how but its the same that's always causing trouble. Just putting that out there! In fact he'll probably read this. Hello.)

I decided I'd try it out---

6 word: Find me with your bright eyes.

Potential?

None.
Age? well... a lot older than me.... (cough)...21...(cough)....
Attractive? Extremely
Flirtatious? Very
R.M.? Yes
Off Limits? Totally
Single? Luckily
Ex- Boyfriends Best Friend's Older Brother? Well.... Yes

Six Word: Too Much History. Like You Anyway.

Valentines disappointment... story of my life!

Well to make a long story short... I would have had a lot to say (like usual) about Valentines Day but I got to go to San Fransisco with my family and my Dad's debate team from Cottonwood. Lets just say that could have been an opportunistic Valentines situation but turns out all the debate students at Cottonwood are a little um... strange. So consequently I was alone again. A good alone though. Its good to get away with your family and strange people on a holiday like this to get your mind of things and specific people.
Let me back it up real fast and update you....
So as you know, DL (deuchelord) finished his two month cycle and came back for me. I played it Beyonce hard but even Beyonce has breakdowns I'm sure... Don't get mad yet I have a good story to back me up. I told him he better work freaking hard because I'm not going through his crap again. I said i didn't trust him and if he wanted any kind of relationship, even friendship, he would have to prove it because his word meant nothing to me anymore.

So he did just that.

Worked FREAKING hard and I fell for it again. After two weeks of him being all cutesy and flirty I finally let down a couple layers of the wall id built against him and he plowed through. (Bluntly put he asked me on a date and by the end of the night being all over me, we made out.) So 12:00 his buddy who witnessed him being completely legit all over me texted me

saying

so Beyonce, what has DL told you about him and X. I said um he says they're just friends. He replies um well i think you need to talk to him about that.... At that point I completely knew what had happened. 5 other people texted me that day confirming it so i told the X what happened the previous night. She was pissed. I was pissed. The awesome thing is that i still hadn't heard from DL since the kiss goodnight on Thursday. Saturday night when i was in Vegas i get a text saying hey... RRRR!!!

So I just bluntly asked whats going on with him and X and he says oh well we still have a thing but i like both of you.... Is that supposed to make it ok? He honestly doesn't think hes doing anything wrong... do you know what a player is because your name is in the dictionary!!! So i said a couple choice explicit words and we haven't talked since. This is two weekends now. Something crappy always happens right before Valentines that really helps me wallow in self pity.
Congratulations! You really had me going again! But this just proves how much of a DL you really are and I'm proud to say I'm really over it! Finally closure! And even better... X dumped him so now hes completely alone! That's what happens when you play Beyonce.... for the third time. oh I'm pathetic.

A Conversation With An Actual Boy

I was just talking to Bryce (an actual boy) and he seemed confused as I tried to explain The Boy Blog. Secrets were revealed.

Secret #1: Bryce said, "I don't see what the big mystery is."

I said, "Actually, you're right. The problem isn't boys. The problem is that girls HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THEY WANT."

Secret #2: Later in the conversation, I expressed the sudden thought I had. "THAT'S IT. Freckles was right all along. It's just hormones."

Bryce said, "Yes, but they are there for a great, wise purpose."

That's my new favorite quote. And I think those are 2 important secrets. What do you all think?

False Attraction

Don't be attracted to things like, when they wear a hat a certain way, when they smell so good you can't stop huffing up their cologne, when their breath is irresistible, or when their veins pop out of their arms after working out and such. These are just false attributes that may be seductive in your eyes, but as Freckles puts it, it's just hormones. It's way true, but we need to fight against stupid emotions so you don't get into trouble with the opposite sex. I have to fight being too attracted to Dustin when he does or doesn't do something, or says something that is a total turn on. (The rare times that he actually does)**

It's so easy for good girls to do something bad. That's what my bishop said to me when I went in to my 16th birthday interview a while ago. He said, "No kissing (failed him on that one :/) or being alone(also failed) with the opposite sex. That's how young innocent girls wind up getting pregnant." I'm not pregnant and I haven't done anything TO get pregnant and I've failed both of those things. So in his face! NEH! But It was good advice. And I should follow it just in case it does get out of hand. But in my opinion, I'll be OK and not do anything bad.
There is some advice for people who want to listen to it.

p.s. The ** is because I let Dustin read the ones he is in, and so I'm just messin' with him. ah ha I'm funny :P