Dear Readers and Bloggers alike,
I have failed to determine the answer to, what I feel is, a vital question. When you find yourself in a position where you've been taken advantage of (used/ cheated on/ lied to/ etc.), how do you:
1. Q: Stop hurting?
2. Try to form other relationships?
In an effort to stop the hurt and try not to think about it, I have completely closed off my heart. That practice has temporarily sufficed to answer the first question... but the second? 4 months after an unexpected and painful breakup, I STILL cannot manage to make myself really like someone else? Why? It's like I sent my heart on a binge for 4 months, didn't exercise it, didn't use it, shut it in a dark room, and just let it rot.. and now, it doesn't work. It's so out of shape that I can't even manage to have a simple crush. I find myself making constant comparisons to my previous relationship and making comparisons between the boys... So now what? How does one get their heart back in shape? How do I keep myself from expecting to see him in every boy I date?
Oh geez thats exactly how I feel too! Ive tried liking other people but there just honestly isn't anything about anyone else that im interested in. My conclusion is that if I dont like anyone then thats that. I wont like anyone, and eventually if someone comes along that isnt a complete waste of time maybe we'll get used to the idea of liking them.
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